swallow

the light in my dark

beauty

grace

on a blue grey canvas

gliding gently through the world

walking out of the light

stardust 

encompassing you 

drifting by

on a windmill

if only i could fly

if only i could fly

hands outstretched

as fast as i can

feeling it run through my fingers

across my face

through my hair

but never closer to you

never closer to you

don't walk away

inside my head
you've made your bed
dancing through my fingers
like milk puddles
slipping
dripping
my eyes hold you
bashfully break
away
and our music fills me
all the space between
colliding with your lips
and our hands intertwine
branches of new
wrapping me
wrapping you
breathing
heavier still
as the water rises
over our heads
and i'm caught in your undertow
and i'm yours if you say so
so?

you're back
found a way into every corner of my mind
seeping into my guts
snuffing out the light
like a bad dream
i can't scream
the lump in my throat is suffocating
your absence is suffocating

like a dark cloud
you hang over my thoughts
threatening to break my calm/ serene
behind my eyes
brimming
i can only hide for so long
now my thoughts are as cold as you
rotting beneath the world

were you bound by chains?
by death?
did you run as fast as you could?
for me, did you run?

i was plagued by dreams of a world
without you
once
now life is what plagues me

i used to be whole
but slowly the world is imploding in on me
and sometimes i welcome an end
but then i'd be no better than you.

child

surrounded by everything
everything haunts me
all sides close in on my chest
fingers one by one
wrapped tightly around my neck
squeezing
i'm drowning in everything i know
i wish i was a child again
thought childish things

sinking

where is my mind?

notice every moment
every movement
my body shakes with
something
i've yet to analyze
no conclusions to the feelings i feel
no desire to
no care
maybe i'm sinking
maybe i'm sinking

interweaving strands like spitting snakes venom
coursing through my vains
knowing nothing more than six degrees separate
me from the world

i cry a little to much
at night my mind races
like butterflies
in the flame
and my guts drip with disdain

your smile

my heart exploding through my chest
bubbling up into my mouth
my head
bursting through my arms
fingers bleeding
belly retching
my all seeping onto the floor
a symptom of your smile
and i pray it never ends