Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I hold your memory up close to my face
just to see if your beauty matches to the grain
of the wood on the frame
and the stain of our ‘was’ to the pain of my now
as I’ve lost what I had
because I can’t remember
the soft of your skin on the tips of my fingers
or the map of your freckles when my eyes used to linger
so I stare a bit harder
cross my eyes over heart
and the colours and moments fold over each other
revealing what went unnoticed
but between those lines
our hands intertwined
and that wisp of a thought
always brings me a smile
so I’ll hold your memory up close to my face
while your back is turned on me
and wait for the sun to shine
just to see if your beauty matches to the grain
of the wood on the frame
and the stain of our ‘was’ to the pain of my now
as I’ve lost what I had
because I can’t remember
the soft of your skin on the tips of my fingers
or the map of your freckles when my eyes used to linger
so I stare a bit harder
cross my eyes over heart
and the colours and moments fold over each other
revealing what went unnoticed
but between those lines
our hands intertwined
and that wisp of a thought
always brings me a smile
so I’ll hold your memory up close to my face
while your back is turned on me
and wait for the sun to shine
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
pendulum
would you hate me if i wanted to be your friend
6 hours 47 minutes tick by under a ladybug shell
and you knew only 5 minutes before
your mind is not something easily read
i'm assuming mine is the same
but you held me, and stood me, and lead me, and left me
and if this is goodbye,
(i'm sorry) your gone.
6 hours 47 minutes tick by under a ladybug shell
and you knew only 5 minutes before
your mind is not something easily read
i'm assuming mine is the same
but you held me, and stood me, and lead me, and left me
and if this is goodbye,
(i'm sorry) your gone.
boredom consumes
so does depression
don't get the two mixed up
boredom can lead to being depressed
but depression is consuming in its own right
it's like quicksand
except you can feel it over your whole body at once
you're not sinking
you're being engulfed
all at once
like a vacuum over your body pulling you every which way
your head pounds
eyes are heavy
sleep is welcomed, but never comes
every hair, every muscle, every cell of your body
carries tremendous weight
a miracle really
how much weight you can lift
how you can still walk and talk
smile even
but its there
its always there
so does depression
don't get the two mixed up
boredom can lead to being depressed
but depression is consuming in its own right
it's like quicksand
except you can feel it over your whole body at once
you're not sinking
you're being engulfed
all at once
like a vacuum over your body pulling you every which way
your head pounds
eyes are heavy
sleep is welcomed, but never comes
every hair, every muscle, every cell of your body
carries tremendous weight
a miracle really
how much weight you can lift
how you can still walk and talk
smile even
but its there
its always there
me
so i'm lost and no ones found
beautiful but flawed
i missed the call
and my insides hurt
so i lay here
waiting for something to change
waiting for the thought
that will push me
back into me
beautiful but flawed
i missed the call
and my insides hurt
so i lay here
waiting for something to change
waiting for the thought
that will push me
back into me
lessons learned
it was a moment of weekness
your moment
and i fell in love
with the tears in your eyes
i saw
in that moment
what holds dear to your heart
and i realize what holds in mine
thank you
your moment
and i fell in love
with the tears in your eyes
i saw
in that moment
what holds dear to your heart
and i realize what holds in mine
thank you
your soul's reflection shines through, blinding me with my tears
your comforting touch reveals a lifetime of pain, yes, my pain
i sit here contemplating this worlds disaster
the people dying
hurting
yet i always come back to you and it hurts me more
because you are so pure even for a moment
and my heart breaks for you
it just your beauty's killing me
your comforting touch reveals a lifetime of pain, yes, my pain
i sit here contemplating this worlds disaster
the people dying
hurting
yet i always come back to you and it hurts me more
because you are so pure even for a moment
and my heart breaks for you
it just your beauty's killing me
to whom this may concern
you don't look like the others
your of a different breed
ponder this here figment
because this, alas, is your world to hold
it will deside the distance of your waters echo
but still i saw the pain in your heart when rejection walked away
and i saw you recoil into self loathing
though you hide it well
if only you knew how i see you
or how many more see you too
fading in 2 am's soft moonlight
i don't know how to lift you to acceptance
because you are who you are
and you are beautiful
your of a different breed
ponder this here figment
because this, alas, is your world to hold
it will deside the distance of your waters echo
but still i saw the pain in your heart when rejection walked away
and i saw you recoil into self loathing
though you hide it well
if only you knew how i see you
or how many more see you too
fading in 2 am's soft moonlight
i don't know how to lift you to acceptance
because you are who you are
and you are beautiful
We once were so close
But now live separate lives
I look back on it now
All those "good old" times
but when did you decide
I wasn't worthy of you
You just kept me around
So you had something to do
You strung me along
Thinking that I couldn't see
But don’t forget I know you
Don’t forget you know me
Do you want honesty now?
Because I’ve got it in spades
You’re an amazing person
That’s got lost along the way
In your quest to be accepted
You put on faces you don’t need
But don’t lose what made you you
Don’t become who you pretend to be
I think maybe its part my fault
For not telling you before
Before we went our separate ways
Before you went too far
I am sorry to do this
But I’m not going to bend
I’m still a friend if you need me
But this, my friend, is the end
But now live separate lives
I look back on it now
All those "good old" times
but when did you decide
I wasn't worthy of you
You just kept me around
So you had something to do
You strung me along
Thinking that I couldn't see
But don’t forget I know you
Don’t forget you know me
Do you want honesty now?
Because I’ve got it in spades
You’re an amazing person
That’s got lost along the way
In your quest to be accepted
You put on faces you don’t need
But don’t lose what made you you
Don’t become who you pretend to be
I think maybe its part my fault
For not telling you before
Before we went our separate ways
Before you went too far
I am sorry to do this
But I’m not going to bend
I’m still a friend if you need me
But this, my friend, is the end
salt
fear affects our hearts
so what are you afraid of?
you're just as scared to hear the truth
as i am to speak it
why do you run so far?
tisk tisk
my words are quicker than you
waves echo up the walls of this room
what to do when anger and heart collide?
i try to force back my smile
you turn at the sight of it
piercing
the look you long to give
you always knew your looks invite death
what is left to do
walk away from you?
i did that a long time ago
so did you
duling pistols at your side
when did we change sides
rocks falling at our feet
what if i miss you
what would you say then?
because that is truth
so is the disappointment in my eyes
my heart
my voice
the salt from mine eyes
kills the life that surrounds me
i grow wiery of the game you turned us into
sucking the air out of every room you enter
i crawl out under the fire
your light once so bright just burns cold now
you have forged your soul
out of misconceptions and lies
all i can do now is watch you from afar
and hope all the best for you
because finding that for yourself may be te hardest thing you do
all my love
your friend
so what are you afraid of?
you're just as scared to hear the truth
as i am to speak it
why do you run so far?
tisk tisk
my words are quicker than you
waves echo up the walls of this room
what to do when anger and heart collide?
i try to force back my smile
you turn at the sight of it
piercing
the look you long to give
you always knew your looks invite death
what is left to do
walk away from you?
i did that a long time ago
so did you
duling pistols at your side
when did we change sides
rocks falling at our feet
what if i miss you
what would you say then?
because that is truth
so is the disappointment in my eyes
my heart
my voice
the salt from mine eyes
kills the life that surrounds me
i grow wiery of the game you turned us into
sucking the air out of every room you enter
i crawl out under the fire
your light once so bright just burns cold now
you have forged your soul
out of misconceptions and lies
all i can do now is watch you from afar
and hope all the best for you
because finding that for yourself may be te hardest thing you do
all my love
your friend
circles and circles and cirles again
caught between the devices you slave to
the devices you crave to
your body sways passionatly
to your own rythm
you surprise me with clouds
and circles
with a silver lining in your hair
and from your lips a sirens song
i am powerless
you run, almost weightless across the floor
but you always come back
well
not always
the devices you crave to
your body sways passionatly
to your own rythm
you surprise me with clouds
and circles
with a silver lining in your hair
and from your lips a sirens song
i am powerless
you run, almost weightless across the floor
but you always come back
well
not always
A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory
recoiled into myself
i have nothing left to do
people live their lives
words and others are a misdemeanor
off the record
we all are guilty
and it's all been done before
and will be again
can we change who we are?
and if we succeed, will we really have succeeded?
or would we just be fooling ourselves again
pain is too easy of an emotion
try love, and joy
my spine is closing in on itself
and it hurts to know
i've changed
for better or for worse
and your "health" is making you sick
sleep comes all to late
and i'm tired of waiting
so i sit in silence?
turn it down
too long in the same position
i need a change
get out of this town
happiness is but a dream
but than again so is this
i have nothing left to do
people live their lives
words and others are a misdemeanor
off the record
we all are guilty
and it's all been done before
and will be again
can we change who we are?
and if we succeed, will we really have succeeded?
or would we just be fooling ourselves again
pain is too easy of an emotion
try love, and joy
my spine is closing in on itself
and it hurts to know
i've changed
for better or for worse
and your "health" is making you sick
sleep comes all to late
and i'm tired of waiting
so i sit in silence?
turn it down
too long in the same position
i need a change
get out of this town
happiness is but a dream
but than again so is this
counting
so l count the somedays that your here
holding onto what promotes my sanity
for dear life i balance
walking on eggshells
cutting the bottoms of my feet
scaring the depths of my soul
just to know that you will pick me up
lick my wounds
kiss my mouth
touch me
risking everything for you
without me i am nothing
without you i am less
so ill count the somedays that your here
the stars and moon can wait
time and space
eternal bliss
because without you these things don't exist
just the memory of what you were
which does not deserve you
because none can compaire
so ill count the somedays that your here
so i can live
up to you
holding onto what promotes my sanity
for dear life i balance
walking on eggshells
cutting the bottoms of my feet
scaring the depths of my soul
just to know that you will pick me up
lick my wounds
kiss my mouth
touch me
risking everything for you
without me i am nothing
without you i am less
so ill count the somedays that your here
the stars and moon can wait
time and space
eternal bliss
because without you these things don't exist
just the memory of what you were
which does not deserve you
because none can compaire
so ill count the somedays that your here
so i can live
up to you
everything is false
everything....
so we put our barriers up, to hide people from ourselves
or ourselves from them
we put clothes on our bodies to hide what we are
what we wear is a reflection of what we think is cool,
not because we think it is cool,
but because we want others to think it
or scary, or dangerous, or feminine, or strong, or sexy
we are no longer bashful, just greedy for attention
and those who don't think or know this, lie to themselves
because we all want to be good people
it is a conscientious decision to be "good" or "evil"
but we are all actors
all wanting to be what we think human is, yet no one really knowing how to do it
watching yourself cry in the mirror
like its you at your lowest, and it may be
but then forcing yourself to keep on crying [and you do it]
makes it false
just like everything else
everything....
so we put our barriers up, to hide people from ourselves
or ourselves from them
we put clothes on our bodies to hide what we are
what we wear is a reflection of what we think is cool,
not because we think it is cool,
but because we want others to think it
or scary, or dangerous, or feminine, or strong, or sexy
we are no longer bashful, just greedy for attention
and those who don't think or know this, lie to themselves
because we all want to be good people
it is a conscientious decision to be "good" or "evil"
but we are all actors
all wanting to be what we think human is, yet no one really knowing how to do it
watching yourself cry in the mirror
like its you at your lowest, and it may be
but then forcing yourself to keep on crying [and you do it]
makes it false
just like everything else
im tired of you
i am tired of you
and i'm tired of this game
i have laid myself to sleep
trying to forgive you of the shame
i don't like to see you
in such a dark light
but every time we speak
the lights get dimmer
my days turn to nights
i'm tired of waiting
i was jaded by your air
but that shade of green that cover'd my eyes
has turned
its through clear glass that now i stare
your heart is good
and your intentions may be well
but good intentions don't build friendship
it's said they pave the road to hell
and i'm tired of this game
i have laid myself to sleep
trying to forgive you of the shame
i don't like to see you
in such a dark light
but every time we speak
the lights get dimmer
my days turn to nights
i'm tired of waiting
i was jaded by your air
but that shade of green that cover'd my eyes
has turned
its through clear glass that now i stare
your heart is good
and your intentions may be well
but good intentions don't build friendship
it's said they pave the road to hell
how long
when did you turn the poetry of your being into words of sorrow?
why did you turn the beauty of what you are into lashes of hate spewing from what used to be such a sweet tasting tongue?
ashes now fall from what was the sparkle in your eye
the space between us that i once longed to fill with you is now as dry as a desert lacking sand
and i'm drowning in it
whatever happened to the rotation of the world as the universe revolved around us?
now along with the sun and moon we fall into a never ending cycle of what we never say
and now we are condemned to stay exactly where we are, in time, in space, in-side-out
why did you turn the beauty of what you are into lashes of hate spewing from what used to be such a sweet tasting tongue?
ashes now fall from what was the sparkle in your eye
the space between us that i once longed to fill with you is now as dry as a desert lacking sand
and i'm drowning in it
whatever happened to the rotation of the world as the universe revolved around us?
now along with the sun and moon we fall into a never ending cycle of what we never say
and now we are condemned to stay exactly where we are, in time, in space, in-side-out
your words
what are words if you don't follow through?
they roll off your tongue like marbles
and hang in the air
but like you
when the wind blows
they are lost
i wonder if you believe the lines that find their way in your mouth
or if you actually think i do
stupidity hangs in the air too
but lingers longer
they roll off your tongue like marbles
and hang in the air
but like you
when the wind blows
they are lost
i wonder if you believe the lines that find their way in your mouth
or if you actually think i do
stupidity hangs in the air too
but lingers longer
fire red
and so you walk away
fire red
more red than you want to be
not so hot
for yourself anyway
but you hide you well
you pretend to be strong
like you don't care
what others, guys, think of you
but it hurts you
it hurts me
to see your strength
a fallacy
but your heart is true
i love your heart
its what makes you you
fire red
more red than you want to be
not so hot
for yourself anyway
but you hide you well
you pretend to be strong
like you don't care
what others, guys, think of you
but it hurts you
it hurts me
to see your strength
a fallacy
but your heart is true
i love your heart
its what makes you you
lack of...
you strike like lightning
raining on my day
the show is cancelled due to lack of inspiration
but even a whore can be a muse
and miss world sleeps around
the universe her strawberry field
stale and rotten
alone and forgotten
forever
raining on my day
the show is cancelled due to lack of inspiration
but even a whore can be a muse
and miss world sleeps around
the universe her strawberry field
stale and rotten
alone and forgotten
forever
spoon man
i don't love or like
but long
and whilst, you are an impartial
it was only a matter of time
the pockets full of posy's are overwhelming
i would miss them in the end
and though i try to bury them
my backyards full
of all the questions and answers i can find
i still don't know why you are here
and the spoon carves it's way
through my heart into my belly
as it runs through my marrow to the tips of my fingers
my dreams are never empty
but long
and whilst, you are an impartial
it was only a matter of time
the pockets full of posy's are overwhelming
i would miss them in the end
and though i try to bury them
my backyards full
of all the questions and answers i can find
i still don't know why you are here
and the spoon carves it's way
through my heart into my belly
as it runs through my marrow to the tips of my fingers
my dreams are never empty
your smile
your smile
it turned me
and at that moment
nothing was wrong
or ever had been
and when you were near
nothing mattered
but you
and the kindness in your voice
stroked my heart
and i wish you were with me
for the rest of my life
i will wish you were with me
it turned me
and at that moment
nothing was wrong
or ever had been
and when you were near
nothing mattered
but you
and the kindness in your voice
stroked my heart
and i wish you were with me
for the rest of my life
i will wish you were with me
i'm not welcome here anymore
so whatever it was
or whomever it may be
that makes us who we are
it may not have me
and as i sit in the presence
of the silhouettes of the night
i sink further into my own skin
where nothing but my mind stirs
my breathing quickens to an impossible rate
and the smile on my face
as radiant as the sun has ever been
burns a hole in time
blue eyes pierce the walls
of the perfectly painted sky
as it burns into the night
complimenting the stars
or whomever it may be
that makes us who we are
it may not have me
and as i sit in the presence
of the silhouettes of the night
i sink further into my own skin
where nothing but my mind stirs
my breathing quickens to an impossible rate
and the smile on my face
as radiant as the sun has ever been
burns a hole in time
blue eyes pierce the walls
of the perfectly painted sky
as it burns into the night
complimenting the stars
hello you
now i look back and wonder
how we ever were who we were
and you meant so much
and i saw things
that i found so easy
but i can't find them anymore
but we are different
and you still seem to surprise me now and again
and i am proud
of you
how we ever were who we were
and you meant so much
and i saw things
that i found so easy
but i can't find them anymore
but we are different
and you still seem to surprise me now and again
and i am proud
of you
with all the flaws in the world
you think yours the most unforgiving
and in someone elses eyes
you may be right
but we all are made
imperfect
and maybe i'm just better at hiding it
but i'm imperfect too
and we all are
from the same mold
we just need to learn
to live the cards we're dealt
and to play like the children we are
you think yours the most unforgiving
and in someone elses eyes
you may be right
but we all are made
imperfect
and maybe i'm just better at hiding it
but i'm imperfect too
and we all are
from the same mold
we just need to learn
to live the cards we're dealt
and to play like the children we are
space
the stars adorn the sky
while we cry at night
the grass grows green in the field
as we tread deep into war
birds sing their siren songs
though the air thins around us all
and sadly all of this is overseen
all of beauty
all of pain
while we cry at night
the grass grows green in the field
as we tread deep into war
birds sing their siren songs
though the air thins around us all
and sadly all of this is overseen
all of beauty
all of pain
word
so tired of the circles we constantly spin
and the current predicament i find i am in
if i don't like your conscience
would you think it a sin?
come down from the moon and the stars and the sun
it is hard to relate when you think you are "one"
your tongue set to fire
your mind-smoking gun
and i'm here, open ear
open hand
open heart
and the current predicament i find i am in
if i don't like your conscience
would you think it a sin?
come down from the moon and the stars and the sun
it is hard to relate when you think you are "one"
your tongue set to fire
your mind-smoking gun
and i'm here, open ear
open hand
open heart
your telepathy
embarassed
an understatement
and i'm appologizing to you
because i knew, all night
how this would end
i just couldn't find the words
and you took the chance
i love your bravory
even though i walked away
i just didn't have your strength
and i might have hurt you
i am sorry
really
i just don't feel that way
an understatement
and i'm appologizing to you
because i knew, all night
how this would end
i just couldn't find the words
and you took the chance
i love your bravory
even though i walked away
i just didn't have your strength
and i might have hurt you
i am sorry
really
i just don't feel that way
childs play
don't bore me with your inequities
when you learn to live
call
when your skin grows strong
and your tears dry
and a normal conversation can be had
without the fear of misinterpritations
call
when a joke's a joke
and its still a joke
call
if you want an opinion
and can handle an opinion
call
when you remember that i am a friend
and my intentions aren't to hurt you
call
when you learn to live
call
when your skin grows strong
and your tears dry
and a normal conversation can be had
without the fear of misinterpritations
call
when a joke's a joke
and its still a joke
call
if you want an opinion
and can handle an opinion
call
when you remember that i am a friend
and my intentions aren't to hurt you
call
i need oxygen
see my heart
dripping down my face
in puddles on the floor
because i've probably lost who we were
and the friendship we had
so i walk slowly
through the light
and the dark
numb from my words
that i pray didn't hurt you
as much as it did me
to say them
because the truth is i love you
like a friend
like a brother
and the thought of you not here
akin to life without air
and right now
i need oxygen
dripping down my face
in puddles on the floor
because i've probably lost who we were
and the friendship we had
so i walk slowly
through the light
and the dark
numb from my words
that i pray didn't hurt you
as much as it did me
to say them
because the truth is i love you
like a friend
like a brother
and the thought of you not here
akin to life without air
and right now
i need oxygen
whatever
if i knew who i was
i might let you know
let us both in on the secret
we could hold it forever
and we'd know why i cry
why my heart feels empty
why my voice dries to dust
why my mind dare tread
instead we laugh and we share
and i eat up your words
fill the void in my soul
wait for night then for day
i might let you know
let us both in on the secret
we could hold it forever
and we'd know why i cry
why my heart feels empty
why my voice dries to dust
why my mind dare tread
instead we laugh and we share
and i eat up your words
fill the void in my soul
wait for night then for day
jellybean
if my mouth fly open
let the truth take away what everyone knows
and blind you no futher
but stamp out all sound
for we both know what's to come
and just wait for the day
where we sew what we reap
and the words hang like clouds
when the storm marches on
and lighting touches all
and walls rumble
like the belly of the beast itself
lined with silver
hearts of old
minds no other
left alone
we've lost eachother
let the truth take away what everyone knows
and blind you no futher
but stamp out all sound
for we both know what's to come
and just wait for the day
where we sew what we reap
and the words hang like clouds
when the storm marches on
and lighting touches all
and walls rumble
like the belly of the beast itself
lined with silver
hearts of old
minds no other
left alone
we've lost eachother
something wicked this way comes
make me move
or make yours first
or stand real still
so no one's hurt
we walk together
both play dumb
but something wicked this way comes
i see you too
you play the game
speak up now
if it won't change
i'm not with you
as i am with some
because something wicked this way comes
or make yours first
or stand real still
so no one's hurt
we walk together
both play dumb
but something wicked this way comes
i see you too
you play the game
speak up now
if it won't change
i'm not with you
as i am with some
because something wicked this way comes
impressions
all in fun
with whomever they may be
because what they think
means everything to you
in whatever moments may be
and ever the wordsmith
smiling is all i can do
as i remember who you are
and what you are
the face i see has always been so clear
all sides
in all lights
it was just my head
my eyes
bogged
fogged
body vs mind vs you vs me
and the battles done a'ragin'
as the war's never been
and a girl
has never felt so special
with whomever they may be
because what they think
means everything to you
in whatever moments may be
and ever the wordsmith
smiling is all i can do
as i remember who you are
and what you are
the face i see has always been so clear
all sides
in all lights
it was just my head
my eyes
bogged
fogged
body vs mind vs you vs me
and the battles done a'ragin'
as the war's never been
and a girl
has never felt so special
turbulance
take my wrist
bend it back
push me up against a wall
kiss my neck
make me bleed
frustration saturates the senses
passion burns
so does ice
as you stare into my soul
niether breaks
til the dawn
of the new age
is seen
bend it back
push me up against a wall
kiss my neck
make me bleed
frustration saturates the senses
passion burns
so does ice
as you stare into my soul
niether breaks
til the dawn
of the new age
is seen
who what
what's wrong with the world?
what is wrong with us
i'd love to know why no one remembers what we mean
when we say we are friends
or maybe i'm assuming
and thats why i feel
like we've been wasting our time
and maybe i have been
what is wrong with us
i'd love to know why no one remembers what we mean
when we say we are friends
or maybe i'm assuming
and thats why i feel
like we've been wasting our time
and maybe i have been
indigo
the worlds weight
it's undertows pull
pulling on my shoulders still
reaching in
into my chest
nothing more can you suggest
angels and my demons spar
wearing masks
we've gone nowhere
if i could speak of what i know
i know i'll love
and hold you here
forever
it's undertows pull
pulling on my shoulders still
reaching in
into my chest
nothing more can you suggest
angels and my demons spar
wearing masks
we've gone nowhere
if i could speak of what i know
i know i'll love
and hold you here
forever
a sadness i've never known
my heart, it aches
and time doth pass
just slow enough to burn
and all the song
and all my thoughts
it is to you they turn
and tears, they grow from all my pores
it's to the sea they run
and if i could, i'd follow them
if it meant we could be one
you said those words
i've never known
and my heart, it breaks in two
my only wish, is that you know
i feel the same way too
and time doth pass
just slow enough to burn
and all the song
and all my thoughts
it is to you they turn
and tears, they grow from all my pores
it's to the sea they run
and if i could, i'd follow them
if it meant we could be one
you said those words
i've never known
and my heart, it breaks in two
my only wish, is that you know
i feel the same way too
unlearn
we've learned to be shells of our true selves
to forget what it is like to be human
to live through each day thinking only of ourselves
our busy schedules
what clothes might look good on us
what purse to wear with that outfit
to leave the world that surrounds us
to live only for ourselves
we are all ignorant to everything
because we are nothing
and we don't care to be anything but what we already are
progression is the illusion that lets us live without the fear that our hearts are breaking
but we are all broken
some more than others
and here comes a new year
but we live for nothing
we live for nothing
to forget what it is like to be human
to live through each day thinking only of ourselves
our busy schedules
what clothes might look good on us
what purse to wear with that outfit
to leave the world that surrounds us
to live only for ourselves
we are all ignorant to everything
because we are nothing
and we don't care to be anything but what we already are
progression is the illusion that lets us live without the fear that our hearts are breaking
but we are all broken
some more than others
and here comes a new year
but we live for nothing
we live for nothing
you think you know
Climb higher And get lost in the clouds Lose everything your feet once knew You are above that now Hold on to nothing Your on your way up Higher learning And then you fall Out of the clouds Off the pedestal You've built To the floor Where you now know Nothing
something
i looked upon you with an awe
mysterious as you were
i was unborn beside you
and we fell together
a short-lived affair
i grew to know you
your learned heart
you play the poet well
you look so hard for the moon
but you miss the rich night sky
and it's stars
and i'm sorry
you've never let me in
i looked upon you with an awe
mysterious as you were
i was unborn beside you
and we fell together
a short-lived affair
i grew to know you
your learned heart
you play the poet well
you look so hard for the moon
but you miss the rich night sky
and it's stars
and i'm sorry
you've never let me in
if only you knew
its hard to watch you slide
when i'm nowhere to be seen
and my feelings for you have never changed
even though you've disappointed
me
and yourself
if i could let you feel what i feel
i would hand it over
even though most days i hurt
once you know the seconds of joy
of, yes, love
it will have all been worth it
when i'm nowhere to be seen
and my feelings for you have never changed
even though you've disappointed
me
and yourself
if i could let you feel what i feel
i would hand it over
even though most days i hurt
once you know the seconds of joy
of, yes, love
it will have all been worth it
anonymous
don't let your beliefs become the wall that parts you from others
and watch who you choose to show down
what you say and how you say it
you've told me before
and i'll tell you again
people express themselves
and so do you
try to understand people before you judge
(and your judgements fucking cut)
live the life, walk the walk
and see where you stand by the time you walk out
i haven't the hardest life
it's been quite a fucking slice compared
but i've seen
and lived through
if offense was taken
speak up
all appologies
but put me down again
please
because i've learned to deal with that too
i've also learned to deal with my anger
(because i'm writing here)
and watch who you choose to show down
what you say and how you say it
you've told me before
and i'll tell you again
people express themselves
and so do you
try to understand people before you judge
(and your judgements fucking cut)
live the life, walk the walk
and see where you stand by the time you walk out
i haven't the hardest life
it's been quite a fucking slice compared
but i've seen
and lived through
if offense was taken
speak up
all appologies
but put me down again
please
because i've learned to deal with that too
i've also learned to deal with my anger
(because i'm writing here)
sweet dreams
ask me a question, i'll lie to your face
and there will be no moral disgrace
rhymes get me no further than you
with your heads lined on stakes
and your views all a-skew
and i turn my red cheeks
and my head full to quip
and i know your blood boils
as i loosen my grip
though your tongue it doth drip
from your fire bleeding lips
i smile a coy smile
and i drift off to sleep
where i dream of the day
when you sew what you reap
and there will be no moral disgrace
rhymes get me no further than you
with your heads lined on stakes
and your views all a-skew
and i turn my red cheeks
and my head full to quip
and i know your blood boils
as i loosen my grip
though your tongue it doth drip
from your fire bleeding lips
i smile a coy smile
and i drift off to sleep
where i dream of the day
when you sew what you reap
a friend in need...
you long for the truth
(i know what that's like)
so this is all i have to offer
what you see
is me
not all, or half
but enough
and if i could show you everything you wanted
i would
but i can't offer up what isn't there
take what you can
and i thank you
because i have taken everything i need
but i know that our needs are not one in the same
and i am sorry i can't be everything you desire
but i know
that i can't be everything you desire
but i hope you're still here
when you figure this out
(i know what that's like)
so this is all i have to offer
what you see
is me
not all, or half
but enough
and if i could show you everything you wanted
i would
but i can't offer up what isn't there
take what you can
and i thank you
because i have taken everything i need
but i know that our needs are not one in the same
and i am sorry i can't be everything you desire
but i know
that i can't be everything you desire
but i hope you're still here
when you figure this out
imperfections
all the small things about us are what make s who we are
my imperfections are what perfect me
and i have beautiful eyes that see you
all of you
past your imperfections
though they've perfected you
down to your heart
that touches me
and i am humbled in your presence once again
and it makes me want to be more
and i sit here
shivering with excitement
because i know where i want to be
and i know who i want to be
and it is you who has helped me see that
and i thank you
for being so beautiful
my imperfections are what perfect me
and i have beautiful eyes that see you
all of you
past your imperfections
though they've perfected you
down to your heart
that touches me
and i am humbled in your presence once again
and it makes me want to be more
and i sit here
shivering with excitement
because i know where i want to be
and i know who i want to be
and it is you who has helped me see that
and i thank you
for being so beautiful
wishing... and hoping...
and here i go again
wishing i was somewhere else
sleeping beside you
your arms keeping me warm
keeping me safe
but instead i rely on my double thick duvet
and my knee-high socks
because my feet are cold
wishing i was somewhere else
sleeping beside you
your arms keeping me warm
keeping me safe
but instead i rely on my double thick duvet
and my knee-high socks
because my feet are cold
trees and such
though my glass half empty
optimism lingers
and i find myself content with where i am
and who i am
there are thoughts
(and dreams)
yet i tread lightly down the path i seem to be following
and i photographically categorize every scene
and lock it away in my memory
so i can hold you there forever
optimism lingers
and i find myself content with where i am
and who i am
there are thoughts
(and dreams)
yet i tread lightly down the path i seem to be following
and i photographically categorize every scene
and lock it away in my memory
so i can hold you there forever
where are you
so young
no impression
where are all your friends?
your family tied
to themselves they are bound
and i'm scared for you
succumbing to the abyss
you cant hold your head high
or stand on your two feet
and you cried to my eyes
you are scared
and alone
and i care so much more
than i thought that i could
i just wish i knew your name
no impression
where are all your friends?
your family tied
to themselves they are bound
and i'm scared for you
succumbing to the abyss
you cant hold your head high
or stand on your two feet
and you cried to my eyes
you are scared
and alone
and i care so much more
than i thought that i could
i just wish i knew your name
i don't see you anymore
i contemplate you
with your hair and your smile
getting lost in the moments
settling down
for just a while
than your tongue lashes out
in that wryful way
and then i lose you in the eyes of another
with your hair and your smile
getting lost in the moments
settling down
for just a while
than your tongue lashes out
in that wryful way
and then i lose you in the eyes of another
it's times like these...
i call you
call you
all the time
but nothing in return
and than i look around me
and everyone else knows theirs
loves theirs
can laugh and share
but i stand alone
and watch them
through the window
and i learn from others
what we should be like
and what i am missing
call you
all the time
but nothing in return
and than i look around me
and everyone else knows theirs
loves theirs
can laugh and share
but i stand alone
and watch them
through the window
and i learn from others
what we should be like
and what i am missing
too stubborn to change
piss away
and cry your tears
wondering where you went wrong
you aren't man enough for me
reading your own sob story
god
your balls are on the floor
and not in my court
get over yourself
because no one else cares
i don't have the time to coddle you too
we're all busy now
cleaning our own wounds
maybe you should consider
growing up
it gets easier with time
and cry your tears
wondering where you went wrong
you aren't man enough for me
reading your own sob story
god
your balls are on the floor
and not in my court
get over yourself
because no one else cares
i don't have the time to coddle you too
we're all busy now
cleaning our own wounds
maybe you should consider
growing up
it gets easier with time
little miss evil's got a way
walk on eggshells girl
for you are in troubled water
looking down your nose
high on your hill-top
i can see why you're so blind
but even jill fell down the hill
and when i find you there
i'll try to remember not to kick you when you're down
for you are in troubled water
looking down your nose
high on your hill-top
i can see why you're so blind
but even jill fell down the hill
and when i find you there
i'll try to remember not to kick you when you're down
constellation so pure
and if he is really the muse of all muses
than he will be honor'd
with the greatest gift
the body
as he has inspired me
and stolen my heart
and no man
nor woman
could ever take the place
of the void he hath fill'd
than he will be honor'd
with the greatest gift
the body
as he has inspired me
and stolen my heart
and no man
nor woman
could ever take the place
of the void he hath fill'd
the universe revolves around us
... i want to believe in something
don't we all
want to be able to lay down our heads
and trust that when we wake
(if we wake)
everything will be ok
will hold our hands when we're fallen
(because we've all fallen)
will carry us when we tire
will love us
unconditionally
but as dust blows in the wind
and as life moves infinitely
we never really know how alone we are
until we die
don't we all
want to be able to lay down our heads
and trust that when we wake
(if we wake)
everything will be ok
will hold our hands when we're fallen
(because we've all fallen)
will carry us when we tire
will love us
unconditionally
but as dust blows in the wind
and as life moves infinitely
we never really know how alone we are
until we die
we have forgotten
we've everything we could ever want
but still we want more
because we don't know how
to aquire what we need
we're all victims of our own short-comings
i've forgotten how to appologize
and i never ask for help
i am quick to anger
slow to forgive
and though i can see my faults
i find it very hard to change
yet beneath it all
i enjoy who i am
because my intentions are honorable
and though i do wish to become
the ultimate fighting machine
with my practice in yoga, kick boxing, and hip-hop dance
i know i could only use my power for good
and i can only hope to one day become
an X-Men
but still we want more
because we don't know how
to aquire what we need
we're all victims of our own short-comings
i've forgotten how to appologize
and i never ask for help
i am quick to anger
slow to forgive
and though i can see my faults
i find it very hard to change
yet beneath it all
i enjoy who i am
because my intentions are honorable
and though i do wish to become
the ultimate fighting machine
with my practice in yoga, kick boxing, and hip-hop dance
i know i could only use my power for good
and i can only hope to one day become
an X-Men
if you're not bettering yourself, you are actually getting worse
you think you've a handle on things
but you're as lost as the rest of us
and in frustration you forget
yourself, or what you (know)
what do i see?
a woman who (believes) she knows herself
[all too well]
and what is right from wrong
and what is wrong'er than other wrongs
and is quick to point out faults in others
and to put them in their "place"
but when did you become the teacher?
who asked you for this test?
what makes your answers right,
or (even) better than the rest?
one can only see what people show them
and this is what you have shown me
that maybe you're the one that needs to learn
what other people need
but you're as lost as the rest of us
and in frustration you forget
yourself, or what you (know)
what do i see?
a woman who (believes) she knows herself
[all too well]
and what is right from wrong
and what is wrong'er than other wrongs
and is quick to point out faults in others
and to put them in their "place"
but when did you become the teacher?
who asked you for this test?
what makes your answers right,
or (even) better than the rest?
one can only see what people show them
and this is what you have shown me
that maybe you're the one that needs to learn
what other people need
writing with spilly fingers
and slurs of mind
make for interesting conversation
but when you find you can't hold on to yourself anymore
you find someone else
and they will give you what you shant believe
whatever that may be
and though you know what you may be like
when you write with spilly fingers
and slurs of mind
not even you can predict the future
and slurs of mind
make for interesting conversation
but when you find you can't hold on to yourself anymore
you find someone else
and they will give you what you shant believe
whatever that may be
and though you know what you may be like
when you write with spilly fingers
and slurs of mind
not even you can predict the future
the underbelly
So simplistic are the things that we all hold on to
And then we avoid anything real to anything because we fear consequences that again, mean nothing.
We can’t forget the past, because we’d never learn
But we can move on, and embrace, and grow from whatever experiences we collide with
And everything is an experience
We burn so many bridges because we fail to let go of the thought that we, ourselves, aren’t perfect
Or maybe that others, like ourselves, aren’t perfect
And that we all live our lives at different speeds than those all around us
But we all have the commonality that time hastens as we age
And no one is getting any younger
But you’d think we would learn easier
Instead we grow more intolerant
We see squares instead of cubes
Some just see lines
When life’s boundaries are limitless, we live with blinders
And so we have lost our faith
In Life
In God
In Ourselves
So we choose not to trust anyone
And we see in people what we want to see
Some don’t stand a chance
And then we avoid anything real to anything because we fear consequences that again, mean nothing.
We can’t forget the past, because we’d never learn
But we can move on, and embrace, and grow from whatever experiences we collide with
And everything is an experience
We burn so many bridges because we fail to let go of the thought that we, ourselves, aren’t perfect
Or maybe that others, like ourselves, aren’t perfect
And that we all live our lives at different speeds than those all around us
But we all have the commonality that time hastens as we age
And no one is getting any younger
But you’d think we would learn easier
Instead we grow more intolerant
We see squares instead of cubes
Some just see lines
When life’s boundaries are limitless, we live with blinders
And so we have lost our faith
In Life
In God
In Ourselves
So we choose not to trust anyone
And we see in people what we want to see
Some don’t stand a chance
i don't want to talk about it
like a blanket, your arms wrap around me
and everything that was
and ever will be
fades away into seconds
and we are everything that we could ever wish to be
because we are
happy
and everything that was
and ever will be
fades away into seconds
and we are everything that we could ever wish to be
because we are
happy
lend me your ears
so conflicting, yet one in the same
and so i do what you say
one emotion replaces the other
and i am inside out
outside in maybe
and slowly blanketing my body/ my soul
evoking one response then another
and the results are catastrophic
or catatonic
while my heart melts, and burns
such passionate destruction
and constructive consumption
as light to dark, or dark to light
i am lost in it
and so i do what you say
one emotion replaces the other
and i am inside out
outside in maybe
and slowly blanketing my body/ my soul
evoking one response then another
and the results are catastrophic
or catatonic
while my heart melts, and burns
such passionate destruction
and constructive consumption
as light to dark, or dark to light
i am lost in it
pony ride
and so we walk
hours mostly
taking turns who leads and who follows
bridal in mouth
but we do choose to walk
or maybe i prefer it
to what may be
because dancing isn't an option
and this ring is too small
and so we walk
in circles again
hours mostly
taking turns who leads and who follows
bridal in mouth
but we do choose to walk
or maybe i prefer it
to what may be
because dancing isn't an option
and this ring is too small
and so we walk
in circles again
do you think that it's enough
we move through the motions now
like we've done before
(and it was you who had the nerve...)
i don't really blame human nature
but i blame you now
because you know what you are doing
and you know that i have no fault here
and so now
as we (not so slowly) turn into metal and gears and bolts
looking for a heart to match your axe
you cry yourself into a tin statue for eternity
and so now i ask
where's dorothy when you need her?
like we've done before
(and it was you who had the nerve...)
i don't really blame human nature
but i blame you now
because you know what you are doing
and you know that i have no fault here
and so now
as we (not so slowly) turn into metal and gears and bolts
looking for a heart to match your axe
you cry yourself into a tin statue for eternity
and so now i ask
where's dorothy when you need her?
melting
does one die when they've learned everything they can?
a persons capacity to hold information varies from this one to that
what if one day my brain couldn't fathom anything more and i just...
slipped away?
what if i didn't want to hear anything more you had to say
so i just walked away?
you can only hope so much before faith is lost
i won't be shamed again
and we will see who the fool is
and i wish i was quick to anger
at least that way something would be blinding me from the truth,
your truth
but now all that burns in mine eyes is disapointment
and right now the walls are melting
a persons capacity to hold information varies from this one to that
what if one day my brain couldn't fathom anything more and i just...
slipped away?
what if i didn't want to hear anything more you had to say
so i just walked away?
you can only hope so much before faith is lost
i won't be shamed again
and we will see who the fool is
and i wish i was quick to anger
at least that way something would be blinding me from the truth,
your truth
but now all that burns in mine eyes is disapointment
and right now the walls are melting
when is it that i sleep
with great power...
and we all exude this
but some don't know how
or when
to use it
and we've all fallen bridges
but there is a time to grow
yet some never leave the past
where it's better left
and some just never leave
when it becomes ok to move backwards in time
and to think of only oneself
ill go to you for advice
but until than
it was a learning experiance walking with you this far
and we all exude this
but some don't know how
or when
to use it
and we've all fallen bridges
but there is a time to grow
yet some never leave the past
where it's better left
and some just never leave
when it becomes ok to move backwards in time
and to think of only oneself
ill go to you for advice
but until than
it was a learning experiance walking with you this far
Saturday, November 15, 2008
you ever so slowly push your hand down my throat
gripping my heart as i gag on your arm
uproot it from my soul
and slide it out
leaving me hollow
yet i continue to write to walls
and talk until health starts to question
my fingers bleed unto my words
though every letter goes unread
my voice has started breeding horses
though you maintain yours stay unsaid
the strength you wield is twofold
shining brighter than the light
over your eyes though, a mask is fit
you've been running all your life
and every time your head doth turn
i fight against the pain
you grip my gut in your hand so tight
litter your floor with my remains
have you no mercy?
or does our distance leave your conscience feeling clean?
gripping my heart as i gag on your arm
uproot it from my soul
and slide it out
leaving me hollow
yet i continue to write to walls
and talk until health starts to question
my fingers bleed unto my words
though every letter goes unread
my voice has started breeding horses
though you maintain yours stay unsaid
the strength you wield is twofold
shining brighter than the light
over your eyes though, a mask is fit
you've been running all your life
and every time your head doth turn
i fight against the pain
you grip my gut in your hand so tight
litter your floor with my remains
have you no mercy?
or does our distance leave your conscience feeling clean?
the rain crashs through my skin, looking for a place to hide
each drop
crystal clear
cuts through the sky
shattering on my bones
the cold walks closer now
i see it's breath
lingering in the dark
and i stand neith the glow of a streetlamp;
softly reaching down
every which way
carving out a many path to follow
never has the world looked so uninviting
each drop
crystal clear
cuts through the sky
shattering on my bones
the cold walks closer now
i see it's breath
lingering in the dark
and i stand neith the glow of a streetlamp;
softly reaching down
every which way
carving out a many path to follow
never has the world looked so uninviting
Friday, November 14, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
there she goes, again
walking throught my head
she's got me lovestoned
and i think that she knows
i want to explode
because i fell in love with a girl
and they say it's possible
but she left me
wondering where does the good go
though i'm not surprised
reading maps
i churn
hear that song
my gut burns
so you can go your own way
if you need
walking throught my head
she's got me lovestoned
and i think that she knows
i want to explode
because i fell in love with a girl
and they say it's possible
but she left me
wondering where does the good go
though i'm not surprised
reading maps
i churn
hear that song
my gut burns
so you can go your own way
if you need
face to face
there was a day when i laid face to face with you
whispered into your ears
heard your thoughts and your fears
and smiles were all the night would shine through
now time passes like old but remains the only thing true
your face fades away,
and your intentions betray
my thoughts decay with every day new
so where is the day when i get to sit face to face with you?
huddled in a cafe
fighting through the cliche
catching up on the pieces we missed when we last bid adieu
whispered into your ears
heard your thoughts and your fears
and smiles were all the night would shine through
now time passes like old but remains the only thing true
your face fades away,
and your intentions betray
my thoughts decay with every day new
so where is the day when i get to sit face to face with you?
huddled in a cafe
fighting through the cliche
catching up on the pieces we missed when we last bid adieu
Say It's Possible
I see the lights are turning
And I look outside, the stars are burning
Though this changing time
It could have be anything we want
It's fine, salvation was just
a passing thought
It was just a passing thought
Don't wait, act now
This amazing offer won't last long
It's only a chance to save the path we're on
I know there are more exciting things to talk about
And in time we'll sort it out
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
And truth, is such a funny thing
With all these people
Keep on telling me
They know what's best
And what to be frightened of
And all the rest are wrong
They know nothing about us
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
I'm not alright..
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
This could be something beautiful, I know
And I look outside, the stars are burning
Though this changing time
It could have be anything we want
It's fine, salvation was just
a passing thought
It was just a passing thought
Don't wait, act now
This amazing offer won't last long
It's only a chance to save the path we're on
I know there are more exciting things to talk about
And in time we'll sort it out
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
And truth, is such a funny thing
With all these people
Keep on telling me
They know what's best
And what to be frightened of
And all the rest are wrong
They know nothing about us
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
I'm not alright..
And though they say it's possible to me
I don't see how it's probable
I see the course we're on
Spinning farther from what I know
I'll hold on
Tell me that you won't let go
This could be something beautiful, I know
Monday, November 3, 2008
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